A Mind Unraveled by Kurt Eichenwald

Author:Kurt Eichenwald
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Random House Publishing Group
Published: 2018-10-15T16:00:00+00:00

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The dean ordered me to leave campus directly from the health center. She promised I could return the following semester if I wanted, but I felt certain she was not telling the truth.

I was crushed, beaten. I knew I would be forced to combat these falsehoods, to once again prove my sanity, for Naarden to continue my treatment plan. I could barely move, much less talk. My mother and someone else helped me to the car. We drove to the Media Inn. Back in her room, I asked about returning to school to collect my things and say goodbye to my friends.

“We can’t, Kurt,” my mother said. “You’re not allowed on campus.”

Something cracked—my resolve, my fortitude. Nothing made sense. I grabbed a plastic box off a table and threw it against the wall, smashing it to pieces.

“What the fuck?” I screamed. “I can’t go back on campus? What am I, fucking Hitler? I’m so fucking horrible, if anybody even sees me they’re going to fall over dead?”

“Kurt, stop!”

“Nicholson was right! He told me if I didn’t hide, I’d get destroyed. All of you told me to be open! Look what fucking happened! I can’t go back to school! I can’t pack my clothes! I can’t say goodbye to my friends!”

My rage knew no bounds. I ranted, threw more things, and collapsed on the floor in tears. My mother stroked my hair as she told me she was going to call my brother at Harvard. She needed help. This was more than she could handle alone.

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